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Feb. 21st, 2009

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Goodbye, fair LJ

It's been a long time coming... time to say goodbye to LiveJournal. LJ was here when no one else was... for that I will be eternally grateful. But now there are much better blogging platforms out there - my fav is Wordpress.

Personal blog
Gauche Alchemy
CK Originals
Twitter
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It's been a long time coming... time to say goodbye to LiveJournal. LJ was here when no one else was... for that I will be eternally grateful. But now there are much better blogging platforms out there - my fav is Wordpress.

<a href="http://amywing.wordpress.com">Personal blog</a>
<a href="http://gauchealchemy.wordpress.com">Gauche Alchemy</a>
<a href="http://ckoriginals.wordpress.com">CK Originals</a>
<a href="http://twitter.com/amywing">Twitter</a>
<a href-"http://facebook.com/amywing">Facebook</a>

I hope those of you who are LJ devotees will consider following along at my new location. My recommendation: sign up for a free Google Reader account - it will allow you to watch blogs all across the internet easily.
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New layout

Most of my artwork is on my Gauche Alchemy blog, but I thought I'd put this one here since it doesn't have any components specifically from my kits.

I've been proud of my mixed media artwork lately, so head on over to the other blog and check it out if you're interested. (Not everything there is mine - we have a team of designers - but it's all pretty great eye candy.)

Anyway, I had so much fun creating today. My depression earlier this week is yet another reminder that I can't get away with neglecting myself. Wonder when that lesson will really sink in? Ever?

Anyway, here's the layout - it's a 2-pager.




Feb. 18th, 2009

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Creeping in

It's creeping in on me again. Is it situational - too much to do, too disoranized, too overwhelmed? - or is it chemical - I need more serotonin and norepinephrine?

Dunno. Might be partly allergies - hard to feel chipper and easy to feel overwhelmed when you're tired.

Bad dreams this week - dreampt I fight with my boss and lost my job. The strange thing is that the fight was over nothing that would be remotely worth fighting about IRL. Then early this morning a dream that literally made my entire body go numb - seriously! I was numb when I woke up! I dreampt Jhaleah was in a bus accident and was impaled with glass all over. She vomited a metric ton of glass but seemed otherwise okay until I noticed her chest wound was spurting blood from her tiny heart. I tried to plug the dike, so to speak, with my finger - but the heart beat twice and then stopped.

Fortunately I realized I was dreaming... But that didn't keep me from lying awake at 4 a.m.

Got up, went to work, listened to nursing chief's accusations (of which, to my surprise, some were entirely valid), explained my position, requested accountability from her team, promised to do better for my part, thanked her for bringing the issues to my attention. Hope that anything about the culture will change? Not holding my breath. Hoping for greater interpersonal skill on my part instead.

My nerves are frayed. Nothng feels anything lie sad or tragic that I can comprehend, but I've been feelng like I want to crawl into a hole the past few days. And I felt so on top of my game a couple of weeks ago! Ha.

It's creeping in. I don't know why. The impulse to hide in my proverbial hole will likely only ensure that the creeper finds me and blankets me in it's darkness - how thick the darkness turns out to be, I cannot predict.

I'm working a full-time schedule for a month starting tomorrow. I hope it will keep me out of the hole. I feel grateful for the increased earnings (such a blessing), but I can't make myself feel all that upbeat about it when my psyche mostly just wants a hole to hide in.

*sigh*

Waiting for the tides to turn...

Jan. 6th, 2009

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This law will destroy small businesses!

Dec. 28th, 2008

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Goal for 2009 and always

It really doesn't matter that it's almost the new year (again). This goal will always be on my radar (and always has been).

Balance.

But it's never seemed so hard. Is it because I've changed - gotten less organized and more lazy? I've always been busy - that hasn't changed. But I've never felt pulled in more directions and I've never felt so helpless to keep it all pulled together.

Just to outline it for myself, here are my major goals (no particular order):

1. Do right by my family - spend quality time with Brent and the girls.
2. Continue to grow my business (Gauche Alchemy) and my mom's business (CK Originals).
3. Continue to administer Scrapbook Stock Exchange (local scrap club), and get even better at delegation.
4. Start taking better care of myself - I know my diet needs an overhaul, and I need DAILY physical activity (not monthly - duh).
5. Keep up on housework and domestic duties - thanks so much to Brent for getting us organized and being such a domestic god (and putting up with my multiple domestic limitations - I promise, I'm still working on it).
6. Get and stay organized - pay bills on time (this never used to be an issue, but I can't seem to keep it straight lately), file things on a regular basis (get rid of my "piling system," that is), throw away what needs to be trashed, donate things we no longer need or use, etc.
7. Budget, pay off debts, and learn to stop feeling like a deer in the headlights whenever I analyze my finances. (This never used to be a problem for me, either - what the hell happened to me?) Start a retirement fund. Get some health and life insurance. *sigh* Okay, I'm already feeling like a deer in the headlights. :(
8. Take spiritual, unwind, relaxation time. This largely involves budgeting my time so that there is near-daily creating time. I've given that up in light of the above priorities, and it doesn't do me (or anyone else) any good.

My feelings after typing this out:
I'd like to say I feel hopeful and motivated, but honestly, I kind of feel like crying. I found myself wondering today if this is a time in my life that I'll look back on and realize that I had no idea how HARD it was. I don't feel that way most of the time because I'm so engaged in so many wonderful things, but it does seem extraordinarily difficult to keep myself together lately.

I am having a great time - involved in so many things I care so much about... learning Web 2.0 stuff, starting a business (or two), working in medicine and finding it so fulfilling, enjoying my kids and making ammends with hubby after two rough years (he's a true gem - really!), enjoying friendships with like-minded people... so much to enjoy - and a constant feeling of betrayal that there are, indeed, only so many hours in a day.

I feel sick a lot of the time - I rest until I feel ready to go again (more like retreat from the world for however long it may take), and then I repeat the process. There has to be a better way. And I *am* hopeful that I can find it.

Dec. 16th, 2008

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Infrequent update

Hi everyone. I am afraid to look at the date when I last updated the ol' blog - it's been forever. I've been a busy girl - most of my posts are on the Gauche Alchemy blog and have little to do with my personal life, so I figured it was time for an update. I have been thinking about some of my LJ friends quite a bit lately, but my blog-reading time has shrunk to almost nothing. When I'm done with the Twilight series (I'm on Breaking Dawn now - almost finished), I think I'll curl up with my laptop instead of a book and catch up on blogs. That's my resolution anyway.

I am very happy to report that things are greater than ever in my relationship with Brent. It's been a rough couple of years for us, lots of conflict and an overhaul in how we deal with each other. I'm not saying we're perfect by any stretch, but he DOES do half of the childcare now. And as he always has, he does at least half of the housework. Since our last heart-to-heart, he's made even more effort to make me happy - he's started to do things I've always asked for but I guess he never understood the importance of. And as for me, I'm working hard to be more civil and get out of the habits that a couple years of resentment can bring.

I tell ya, everything changes when you have a kid. I still shake my head at how little I expected the challenges we've been though. There were so many times where I found my partner unrecognizable. It's nice to look back and see that not only is he still the most changeable person I've ever known, but he must love me a ton to have worked so hard through things that I know felt frustrating and downright repugnant to him, too.

We're far from done. I still need to work harder on improving the things that bug him, and I'm sure he's still making sacrifices that I don't see or understand. But he's willing to make them, and there were times within the past couple of years when I wondered if that willingness was still there. It is.

Brent isn't the kind of person who seems to care one whit about gifts. I'm not big into gifts, either, but I do truly appreciate having special occasions acknowledged with something thoughtful, regardless of the dollar value. I am also extremely affected by small shows of affection - things that show he's thinking about me in the routine moments of his life. Somehow, after almost 6 years together, I think he's starting to understand this. Lately, he's started to leave me simple offerings - he got me a screwdriver a few weeks ago that has different bits stored in the handle. I know, romantic, right? But it WAS! He left me a little note, and I was so freakin' touched that he thought of me. He's been doing a lot more of that type of thing lately, and every time I want to... well, I'll leave that part up to your imagination. Let's just say that thoughtfulness is my strongest aphrodisiac.

Anyway, he actually got me a gift for Xmas this year. Not like him at all. And he wanted to give it to me the moment it arrived, so I got it this evening. It's a Bamboo Fun tablet by Wacom.

Picking my jaw up off the floor.

I've wanted this particular item for quite a while so that I can more easily and effectively learn to edit photos and do some other fun stuff. It's just a tiny little tablet, but a great place for me to start. It's not terribly expensive, but it's not cheap either, and I just couldn't justify it over more practical (and boring) priorities.

So, here I am singing his praises... and it's so much more than the tablet pen - it's the fact that he THOUGHT about what I wanted, researched it, purchased it, and gave it to me for a special occasion. I can't say how much that means to me. A lot.

Before I go play with my new toy, here's a little update on Jhaleah. She's two now. Can you believe that? It's frightening how quickly time passes. She's a little chatterbox, and she loves to sing. In fact, although Kaitlyn loves to sing as well (I probably shouldn't write this for the world to see...), Jhaleah actually has a better sense of pitch. My earliest memories include singing to myself, so it's actually fascinated to listen to her and think that I probably did the exact same things. My mom says she's so much like I was when I was little. Kind of strange to think that genes have such a role in who we are. If we weren't separated by over 30 years of time, it'd probably be downright eerie.

I have a great video to post of her singing Old MacDonald, but it needs to be edited and uploaded, so it will have to wait. My to-do list is neverending since I started my business, and the only way to deal with it is just accept that there will always be a long list of to-dos and take them one step at a time.

Nov. 19th, 2008

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Nov. 10th, 2008

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Thankful

I found this article, strangely, through an e-mail that was forwarded to me attributing it to David Letterman. David Letterman did not write it, and I don't agree with some of what the REAL author has to say... but I agree with 90% of this, and it's a darn good read. Let's keep things in perspective while we celebrate what we have to be thankful for this month.

My own thoughts on this are that, as we recognize and appreciate all we have, we ought to continue to work towards change desperately needed in our country and citizenry. We might learn to accept that change might require some personal sacrifice of us. We need a president that isn't at odds with the world and breaking U.S. and International law at every turn. The fact that we're getting rid of W will hopefully set us back on the right track in terms of how the USA behaves in the world community, as well as the changes it will bring here at home. We should be mindful that a lot of the freedoms and privileges we enjoy were forged in hard times and because Americans were unwilling to accept the status quo. Ironically, the quote at the end of this article was written at a time when America would not have elected a person of color as US president, no matter his (or her!) qualifications. And a lot of other things have changed for the better since then. The difference between a whiner and an agent for change, in my mind, is in acknowledging that in our country change is possible. It may be slow, but it is possible... and we shall overcome.

Made in the USA: Spoiled brats
Posted: November 20, 2006
1:00 am Eastern

By Craig R. Smith
© 2008



The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right? The same magazine that employs Michael (Qurans in the toilets at Gitmo) Isikoff. Here I promised myself this week I would be nice and I start off in this way. Oh what a mean man I am.

The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the president. In essence 2/3s of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change.

So being the knuckle dragger I am, I starting thinking, ''What we are so unhappy about?''

Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter? Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job? Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year?

Maybe it is the ability to drive from the Pacific Ocean to the Atlantic Ocean without having to present identification papers as we move through each state? Or possibly the hundreds of clean and safe motels we would find along the way that can provide temporary shelter? I guess having thousands of restaurants with varying cuisine from around the world is just not good enough. Or could it be that when we wreck our car, emergency workers show up and provide services to help all involved. Whether you are rich or poor they treat your wounds and even, if necessary, send a helicopter to take you to the hospital.

Perhaps you are one of the 70 percent of Americans who own a home, you may be upset with knowing that in the unfortunate case of having a fire, a group of trained firefighters will appear in moments and use top notch equipment to extinguish the flames thus saving you, your family and your belongings. Or if, while at home watching one of your many flat screen TVs, a burglar or prowler intrudes; an officer equipped with a gun and a bullet-proof vest will come to defend you and your family against attack or loss. This all in the backdrop of a neighborhood free of bombs or militias raping and pillaging the residents. Neighborhoods where 90 percent of teenagers own cell phones and computers.

How about the complete religious, social and political freedoms we enjoy that are the envy of everyone in the world? Maybe that is what has 67 percent of you folks unhappy.

Fact is, we are the largest group of ungrateful, spoiled brats the world has ever seen. No wonder the world loves the U.S. yet has a great disdain for its citizens. They see us for what we are. The most blessed people in the world who do nothing but complain about what we don't have and what we hate about the country instead of thanking the good Lord we live here.

I know, I know. What about the president who took us into war and has no plan to get us out? The president who has a measly 31 percent approval rating? Is this the same president who guided the nation in the dark days after 9/11? The president that cut taxes to bring an economy out of recession? Could this be the same guy who has been called every name in the book for succeeding in keeping all the spoiled brats safe from terrorist attacks? The commander in chief of an all-volunteer army that is out there defending you and me?

Make no mistake about it. The troops in Iraq and Afghanistan have volunteered to serve, and in many cases have died for your freedom. There is currently no draft in this country. They didn't have to go. They are able to refuse to go and end up with either a ''general'' discharge, an ''other than honorable'' discharge or, worst case scenario, a ''dishonorable'' discharge after a few days in the brig.

So why then the flat out discontentment in the minds of 69 percent of Americans? Say what you want but I blame it on the media. If it bleeds it leads and they specialize in bad news. Everybody will watch a car crash with blood and guts. How many will watch kids selling lemonade at the corner? The media knows this and media outlets are for-profit corporations. They offer what sells. Just ask why they are going to allow a murderer like O.J. Simpson to write a book and do a TV special about how he didn't kill his wife but if he did … insane!

Stop buying the negative venom you are fed everyday by the media. Shut off the TV, burn Newsweek, and use the New York Times for the bottom of your bird cage. Then start being grateful for all we have as a country. There is exponentially more good than bad.

I close with one of my favorite quotes from B.C. Forbes in 1953:

''What have Americans to be thankful for? More than any other people on the earth, we enjoy complete religious freedom, political freedom, social freedom. Our liberties are sacredly safeguarded by the Constitution of the United States, 'the most wonderful work ever struck off at a given time by the brain and purpose of man.' Yes, we Americans of today have been bequeathed a noble heritage. Let us pray that we may hand it down unsullied to our children and theirs.''

I suggest this Thanksgiving we sit back and count our blessings for all we have. If we don't, what we have will be taken away. Then we will have to explain to future generations why we squandered such blessing and abundance. If we are not careful this generation will be known as the ''greediest and most ungrateful generation.'' A far cry from the proud Americans of the ''greatest generation'' who left us an untarnished legacy.

Click here for original article.

Nov. 9th, 2008

jhaleah laughs

Now the real fun begins!

Jhaleah is at the stage of language development where some of the rules are starting to sink in. This means she is daily coming up with new ways to combine words. Most of them are fairly straightforward, although when your kid says something you've never heard her say before, it's always a delight:

Mom pick up Gee-uh!
Take bath!
I fine! Gee-uh's fine.
Go Gracie's house?
Mommy sweeping! (sleeping)
Gee-uh's turn!

Then there are the completely novel combinations that make you want to bust a gut laughing. For example, as she sat on the toilet for an extended period of time yesterday, she asked for the catalog on the floor that Brent had surely left there after his last session. When I gave it to her, she proudly announced, as she leafed through it:

"Daddy's poopy book!"

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